There are defining moments in every person’s life. Moments that shape us, sometimes for the worse, sometimes for the better. Being human comes with a spectrum of possibilities. We choose our paths always without knowledge of what the future holds. It does not matter where you come from, there are no guarantees in life. Whilst we plan away and hope for the best, unexpected things will always happen. I am nowhere near being at peace with all the time lost. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for missing out on over 7 years of my daughter’s lives. I was faced with a choice, with limited knowledge, believing this process would only take a year. That will always be my regret, not knowing what I was walking into.
Monday was a really bad day for me. I was so angry with the entire process. I had several crying bouts throughout the entire day; without trigger. I would just be writing a contract for work or reading a news story and burst into tears. Honestly, we all have our limits and I was so close to hitting mine. Of course, again, I prayed for patience and peace. Somehow, with each prayer I was seeming to lose both quicker. Then I just stopped looking at the blue dot of death on our case status check. Tuesday and Wednesday I checked 3 times each. Thursday I checked twice and didn’t even bother checking at the end of the work day. I even went as far as telling my friends that someone had prayed for too much patience for me.
I stayed up till 2 am last night making cupcakes for my oldest son’s class. He did not have to bring anything but asked for me to make some at 9:45 pm. That is when I realized 40 kids in one class are way too many. Obviously, I was tired when I got up to take them to school in the morning. Thank goodness they did not have to wear uniforms today since they are celebrating Dia del Niño today. I got them off to school, all three with goodies for their classes. When I got back my husband was still in bed, I was so tired I am not sure what time he got home from his Translator gig. He is a very lucky man, he gets to work with some really great bands when they tour in La Paz. The money is still crap compared to the same work back home, but today he is working with Axl Rose so…
My husband was gone when I got back up this morning. I almost didn’t check USCIS…but it made me burn my breakfast. It’s two hours later and I still have not eaten. You see, that little blue dot move to post decision. On April 10, 2014, they mailed the notice that they approved my husbands applications. He is approved, we can go home as a family after all these years. Of course we still have to wait for instructions from the embassy on what they want next. It could be weeks, but hopefully we can be home to get them registered for the next school year. I have actually checked it about 20 times since, just to make sure it’s real.
Of course this is just the beginning of the end. We still have to navigate visa issuance and get back to the states where we will have to rebuild our lives again. I am just grateful we have the opportunity to do so.